footprints

one giant leap
one small footprint
not much to show where we have trod

steps up and down
circles around
crossroads
always turning

getting closer
walking away
pushing forward
wanting to stay

one step
two step
stop

jump up
walk down
turn to the side
sit down

for now we are here to stay

© Leonora Sophie

Dreams

Leaning over into my field of dreams

My mind is propelled into another world
Where the land is firm
My mind more sturdy
My vision seems unpaired

Tiptoeing across paving stones
Over the lake of my life
I'm prancing, gliding, floating, flying
Being chased by something new

The scent of freshness
The smell of flowers
Launching me into every new hour
Crossing terrains anew

I'm happy
I'm me
Jolly, jovial and free
Don't stir
Don't wake me please.

© Leonora Sophie

We

We're born
We're raised
We kill
We daze
We never mind how we behave

We watch
We wonder
We sit and stare
We push and shove
We growl and glare

We talk
We boast
We raise glasses
And toast

We work
We earn
We play

We eat
Admit defeat?
We conquer too
We'll talk about ourselves
Until we are blue

We shout
We act
We claim to know all the facts
How much of this is true?

We build houses
We have families
We can have it all too
What happens next

When we becomes just you?

© Leonora Sophie

Bucolic Life

I tiptoed past,
Shocked at my former state.
This alternative lifestyle,
Living on the edge,
Lacking balance,
Showing no sense
No care for others,
No recompense
Just busy city living
No foresight, hence

I took a leap
Into the bucolic
Leaving the grey for the green.
Fields open,
Welcome me.

No, I don't miss what's gone,
Not looking at the potential
For what is coming along.
Forces of hope, heart and power

Ahead only giant strides,
Synergy of strength abides.

© Leonora Sophie

children

angry
trapped
children possessed
fighting screaming
children unrest

material yearn
selfish turn
snatch
grab
hate

overwhelming
overreaching
forced to listen
teachers preaching

crying
screaming
crying
moan
crying until
mums take them home

© Leonora Sophie

Answers for our forest

We all want answers -
Our forests are in a mess

Leaders lie
Loggers try
To escape the truth

It's too complex
To learn in class
It's too easy to ignore

But follow the tracks
They  cover up more and more and more

Still complex are the lies
I'm on the edge of my seat
Pale and frail wondering if we will ever win

Can we close all the files and win our case
Stop the gases and the anger burning within?

© Leonora Sophie

Repression

Breathing in

Sucking out

There's nothing about this place

That makes me want to shout about

Freedom

Expression

Warmth

And feeling

Every day ends staring at the ceiling,

Counting the cars I hear

Never stopping

Always going

Somewhere to be

Always doing

Something

Nothing

Keeping busy

Suffocating

Forgetting to breathe,

Feel relief

Or even remembering just what it was.

© Leonora Sophie

Noises

If its not the cars

Its the crows

Endless noises

Including my toes cracking

Ears collapsing

Where is there peace?

© Leonora Sophie

Writing

If writing is a part of me
And something that I have stopped
Then, where is the self expression I need?

It's clear there's a clot,
And a catastrophe
For this smothering of other brain
Is winding me up daily and making me feel insane.

So confusing is this battle I feel I am losing,
But with only one contender,
I have to pretend
To be stronger than I am.

The pen is my sword,
Helps me battle with the words and
Thoughts and feelings abound.

Watching the emotions as they flow -
Feelings I didn't know

Falling to the paper,

Crashing to the ground.

© Leonora Sophie

Painful Love

an inhalation of love
an inhalation of pain
an inhalation of love
i keep breathing again

endurance of love
endurance of shame
the pain in the heartbeat
over and over again

love breathes in
love breathes out
painful love
i black out

breathing you in
breathing you out
concentration of love
felt in your clout

the beating of love
the beating of pain
you raise your hand over me
again and again

i come back for more
my love so sore
i love you so much
so much and more

i breath you in
and i breath you again
i love you forever
my painful friend

© Leonora Sophie

How I am

How I am
I shouldn't change
Even if it seems strange
That I may not have
The time to do
All the small things
That matter to you

It without intention
That I can assure
But as for this scattiness
There is no cure

I never want to hurt
Friend or foe
But right now I’ve caused pain
And there’s nothing else for e to do but go.

I might hang my head low
But without a doubt I know
I cannot be questioned for how I was and my whole being
So I sit here and wait for the phone to ring.

© Leonora Sophie

Setting the mind free

You've played with my mind
So many games
So many times
And I don't want to be unkind
But when I walk away
It's because it hurts to stay
Even if it hurts to leave

I'm confused
Don't you know
Obliged to wait for you and show
What is loyalty and devotion

Yet I'm empty inside
So many times I've had to hide
And try to say the right thing

It always came out wrong
You never like it
Nor listened long
Enough to pretend to understand

I'm stepping away -
Watch me
Distance is good -
You will see
Look for the calm after the storm

Only time will tell
If these feelings I sell
Are worthless just like me

I shouldn't go
I know
I'll be back I hope
And then my mind will be free

© Leonora Sophie

Goodbye

A stranger

An acquaintance

A friend - 

High maintenance

I don't know you any more

Did I ever before?

Empty and in pain

I can't do this again

Hearts break

Hurt shakes

I don't know you any more

But I shall feel no more anger

Goodbye my friend

My acquaintance - 

The end

Goodbye to you

My unknown stranger

© Leonora Sophie

The foreigner

The foreigner,

The outsider,

Always and never alone.

Standing out in a crowd,

Voices screaming out loud,

But, nobody says a word.

Look at the pavement,

Look at ME

I'm walking tall,

Can't you see -

Look we are the same!

We look strange,

Its true -

Cant go alone -

It's too new.

But what if I need a helping hand.

Will you lend it to me?

Or keep staring indifferently

Walking away on the other side?

You smile, say hello.

A new friend,

I know - 

Thank you for showing me the way.

Lost in a land

I might never understand,

I needed you there

And from the outside, I am let in.

© Leonora Sophie

Clouds

Stuck in between seasons

With barely no reason

No explanation for the clouds o'erhead.

Endless raindrops

Clouds hover,

They've stopped

Just above to show me their grey.

They're heavy and dull,

Dreary and lull,

I don't think I can do it today.

Can I start again?

I wonder when?

Or how could I even begin.

Meandering steps,

Advance to nowhere,

So slow.

I have to wait for these grey clouds to go.

© Leonora Sophie

The corridor of lights.

All alone in the corridor - 

The lights switch on automatically.

Motionless,

Darkness - 

Keep moving, they shine.

Fireflies light up the courtyard below

But I stopped to stare,

Now their light is all I know.

Switch on,

Switch off

But I stand still

I'm waiting for something

Some shiny shrill..

Listen above,

Look down below.

Just wait,

And wonder - 

But don't stand still.

© Leonora Sophie

The Man in Grey

He bought my ideas,

He bought my worth;

He showed me just how much love would hurt.

I know the price he paid -

Sold to the man in grey.

He saw my smile,

He made it his;

We shared in laughter, hugs and tears.

I never looked back after that day -

Sold to the man in grey.

He held my hand,

And led me away;

He knew what heart strings to play -

So giddy on love, I tripped and swayed -

Sold to the man in grey.

We walked forever

Under the stars -

The night never-ending, the dreams all ours.

I’ll give you all my love he said -

Sold to the man in grey.

© Leonora Sophie

More soon......?!

Grandma 2

Five years on,
And the feeling’s still strong -
I miss you as much as before.

I’m still thankful for the days
And all the simple ways
When we laughed and talked some more.

To me you are a star,
Shining over me from afar,
Guiding me along the way.

With the angels you shall sleep.
And in my dreams, I’ll keep
Your memory alive each day.

© Leonora Sophie

The storm may have passed

The storm may have passed,
But it’s raining in my heart;
Each tear as heavy as hail.

My emotions are gone,
My body is numb,
My mind has all gone frail.

I’m picking up the pieces
You have left behind
And ransacking so many memories.

Where did you go?
I’ll never know.
I’m staring at the sky.

So many clouds
Don’t break, never part -
Heavy and haunted, like my heart
And the tears that I cry
For you as you lie

So peaceful -
Goodnight to you.


© Leonora Sophie

My heart is open

My heart is open and raw;
The emptiness just pours
And pours - Never ending.

Emotions have been spilled,
My love has been killed
And I walk head in hands.

Taken away,
The very same day
I said I wouldn’t go.

But I left you alone,
My heart and my soul
How can I ever say sorry.

We smiled and laughed,
And that I remember
We talked of days of old.

How can I thank you now?
I can barely sit down
And hold your hand so cold.

Goodbye, farewell.
The stars shall tell
That you are watching me.

I stand up and see
The shining of light
And I let my heart disappear in flight

My thoughts and feelings
All rise above
All I have is endless love.

Take it with you and know
We all love you so.
How could we ever forget you?

© Leonora Sophie